Saturday, July 9, 2011

Adieu! Adieu!

I realize I haven't written or posted anything in quite some time. My life has been an honest mess this past month somewhere between figuring out where I'm going to live and how to deal with the pain my family causes me.

First things first, I'm moving. Not just to another apartment but to a whole different city. I am moving back to Miami. (Lord, help me not go completely insane.) I hate the thought of moving back to the place that robbed me of my innocence, of my childhood, of becoming me, but I'm going back. I can't stand the thought of leaving Tallahassee, but honestly, it's time to say goodbye and move forward.

Dear Tally,


You've opened my mind in so many ways, and I cannot possibly thank you enough for that. Here, I got to know a very important person...me. I got the chance to learn about my political views, about the kind of person I wanted to be, and I learned about love and hate and letting go. Now, I actually have views on my religious affiliation, and I know what I believe. Tally, you allowed me to heal, to mature, and you let me know that it's perfectly fine to build up a few scars. "It builds character." :) Tally, you've given me more than I could ever ask for. You gave me the gift of independence, and for that, you will never be forgotten.


Noah Verrier, http://www.noahverrier.com/id2.html



I am heart-broken knowing that I am leaving this place where this new Esther was born. This is my hometown, and I won't have it any other way despite if I was born in Jersey. As for Miami, there's still room in my heart for second-chances. Yes, I'm going back fully aware of my past, but I'm also going back stronger because I have this new person within me, and she is ready to kick ass if need be.

Miami, I will see your face again in a month and a half. Let the packing up begin! Oh, the joy...

On a happy side-note, I finally tried the nail marbling, and it is fascinating! I cannot wait to have the time and patience to do it again.

Well, I hope everyone's summer is going great...if anybody actually reads this blog...