Friday, June 17, 2011

Free Mini Concert for All of You! :)

Showing support to Colleen Nixon, Jimmy Mitchell, and Becky Gaunt! Three really great artists...representing the Holy Spirit. :) Enjoy!

Rolling in the Deep

Is anybody else addicted to Adele's song, "Rolling in the Deep?" I have been singing the darn song over and over, at least a hundred times a day, in my head, in the shower, in my car, at work, humming it...I just can't get it out of my mind!

There's a lot that I struggle with, and thanks to God, I have friends who are always there for me, making sure I pull through. I might have hit rock bottom, but at least things are looking up. :) Whenever I thought of being where I am in my life right now, I always thought I would be so stressed. Now that I have all these things to be stressed about, all I can do is sing, dance, play guitar, teach myself piano, and hope for the best.

In a week, I'll be visiting my family with not-so-good news and very big questions. I just hope and pray my family does the right thing and gives me their support. Otherwise, I'm stuck where I'm at right now, and trust me, this place isn't so pretty. I'm not talking about a literal place either...

Oh sweet Jesus, have mercy here.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Humble Lullaby

I sing to you
because it hurts.
I sing to you
because it's truth.
I sing to you
because of love.

I have no other way
of expressing my thoughts,
so let me sing my words
into a new lullaby.

Your sweetness,
your protection,
your warmth,
make me aware.

I know that you lived for me,
I know that you died for me.
I know that you'd do it all,
all over again for me.

My happiness can't be bought,
not with a smile or fool's gold.
Only with your light
can my lamp turn on.

Sweet mercy,
sweet escape,
don't leave me,
don't let this all fade.

My lullaby to you,
is not made for fools,
only for you my king,
my king who gave it all.

So let my voice portray
and paint the colors of my words,
that I may be closer to you,
in this humble lullaby.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Good Grief!

We all have different methods of dealing with bananas. Some like to eat them while they're still a little green & fry 'em. Some like them perfectly yellow to make sandwiches with. Some like them on the brown side so they can be mashed up and made into banana pudding. Then, there's those of us that let our lives get crazy and let the bananas turn completely brown. You know what I've learned through experience? SOMETIMES the ugliest, brownest bananas are the ones that make the sweetest banana bread.

When things start getting ugly, God's giving you a chance to make it into something tasty. :)

I was listening to one of my favorite songs by Barlowgirl last night on the way home from work. I couldn't help but tear up while belting out the lyrics, hoping no one else was watching. I always get all teary-eyed when I hear the song, "I Need You To Love Me."


There's this line in the song that gets me thinking. "You're a God who has all things and still you want ME." How many times have I felt unworthy of Him? Time and time again, I find myself pushing my Lord away because of this stupid, ridiculous lie. I've struggled with this lie over and over my entire twenty years of life. It is easier to fall into the comfort of the lie than it is to crawl out into the light of truth.

Music has always been a great part of my life. It's my prayer. When I don't have words to say, I sing. Simple as that. When this song came on last night, it was my prayer for God to pull me up into his light of truth. We all have times when we feel rotten-looking and like we're completely worthless, but that's when God steps into the kitchen and puts the apron on and makes some very sweet banana bread out of us.


-Esther-